JayDaBee

For the past three years my world has revolved around one man. We met, hit it off, and wound up being together for three years. I dont like to give too much personal info on here so I'll just refer to him as J.

I fell for him before he fell for me, but I was willing to wait. This guy was great. He was worth waiting for.
Unfortunately, during our first year, we had to spend quite a bit of time apart off and on. I made mistakes, ones that I was honest about. Even if you mess up, you have to be honest to the person you're with. Honesty is a huge thing.

We broke up a couple times during these three years. Four times actually, if you count our final break-up. But I kept going back because I know in my gut that we are supposed to know each other. In the end though, he fell out of love and didnt want to be with me.

You hear the phrase "its a thin line between love and hate" but I never really understood it until this last time we broke up. I have days of both for him. But overall, my Love for J is too strong and I have to go with my gut feeling. We are still friends. In fact, we really are best friends.

He still loves me, but not the same way anymore. He's not in love with me. It hurts. Its hard to understand how it just fades away. But you cant help how you feel.

We will always know each other. We will always have love for each other. End of story.


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